My first cam sex experience!

These writings I’m posting are actually about a year old. I wrote them on my pc Diary and never knew if I would ever post them online. I’m certainly not the same person I was a year ago. I’m far more in tune with my sexuality and body and it’s needs. I feel I’m far more in tune with the needs of the men I’ve had my experiences with as well. I’ll post more as well as my random thoughts and experiences.

I don’t know if anyone will ever read this, and I guess it doesn’t really matter. I just have to get it out for my own sake.

A little history on me. I’m 32 years old, was married for 9 years to a great guy. We are separated now, and  getting a divorce. It all has to do with me. I’m just full of lust these last few years, and not for him.

I do love him as a friend and I think it’s the same way for him. I know he’s been seeing someone and I am honestly happy for him. I want him to move on. What I want is to explore some dark sexual fantasies I have. I don’t want to “See” anyone at this point.

My thoughts are constantly slutty. The sex Ben and I had together was pretty tame to say the least. Ben was only the 2nd guy I was ever with. The first one was at college and he was just an idiot at some party. I felt the need to get my cherry popped and well…..it seemed like a good idea at the time. A couple of weak thrusts and that was the end of him.

Anyway, I’m currently on my own, have an apartment, Ben is still in the house. We are listing it next week. I’m pretty sure it’s over and a little confused about all my feelings at this time. I do know this. I feel good being on my own, having my space, room to experiment when I get the guts.

I’ve been doing a lot of masturbating lately, I mean a lot. I was always pretty tame sexually with my husband and I guess it was all routine but now it’s incredible on my own. I can get pretty kinky if I want and have no worries of being walked in on by him. I don’t know if it’s the new freedom that has me so horny all the time or not.

I recently purchased some toys online and have been having a blast. I never watched porn before really but I sure am now. There’s anything you want online. I just don’t know if it’s normal for a woman to be into the stuff I’m getting into, and I thought it was men who lusted for some of this stuff, not women. But here I am doing it.

Like awhile back. I stumbled onto this video of these naked guys all standing around this woman laying on the floor with their cocks in their hands jerking off and cumming all over her. The only sperm I’d ever seen shooting out was my husbands when I would give him the odd handjob, and it didn’t look like that. These guys were big and they were shooting a lot of it. She was laying there coaxing them one by one as they took turns cumming all over her. That’s one of the experiences I want. I don’t know if I’d have the guts, or even how a person would set up such a thing discreetly.

I was so turned on I can’t even describe it. My body was on fire and my nipples ached they were so hard. I mean they’re already big but they were really big that night. It wasn’t long before I was on my bed with one of my new toys fucking myself with it. I had my laptop on the bed and watched, imagining that they were cumming on my body and then taking turns fucking me as I lay there prone and naked for them. Each one filling me with his warm love juice, biting my nipples, me powerless to stop them and letting them have their way with me.

That was the night I learned I was capable of multiple orgasms. Not multiple mind blowing ones, but many little ones after the mind blowing one. It’s a good thing I live in a cement apartment building. There seems to be some good sound proofing. I don’t hear the neighbors and no one hears me…..I hope. My first orgasm I screamed it was so powerful. The ones after were little and some bigger….shock waves that went through my body again and again as I moaned loudly. I was exhausted after an hour of that and had a wonderful sleep.

That’s just one of the many things I’ve discovered about my body lately.

About three weeks ago I was on a chat site. I started talking to a guy named Vic. Of course things turned to sex. Why else would a guy be chatting online? Normally I wouldn’t be but I was curious about who and what was out there. He was in his early sixties and not shy, a real perv, but I thought I would play along anyway….that’s why I was there after all. And he was across the country anyway.

He wanted to see a pic of me so I sent a face pic over. “Wow, you’re really beautiful” he said. “Why would you be on here talking to an old guy like me, you can do better?”

I explained it wasn’t about that. That he was the only one who really perved on me right away, everyone else was so nice and that wasn’t what I was looking for. I was looking for a “Dirty old man” or someone who wasn’t so nice. I’m not looking for a date I told him. I’m just exploring.

He asked if I had a nude pic. Funny he should ask, as I did have a few. My face was blurred.  You could still see it was the same person as the face pic I sent him though. I had bought a bunch of really naughty lingerie online and taken some pics and placed them on a flash drive and put it in my safe after blurring the face in them.

In the pics I’m on my bed wearing crotchless panties and and open cup under wire bra that really lifts everything up. I masturbated 4 times that night in that outfit. It was so hot and not like anything I’ve ever worn before I can tell you.

I waited for his reaction. “Oh my God Lauren” he said. “You have an incredible body”, “I mean that figure, those big breasts, and those incredible hard nipples”, “I love a woman with big nipples”.

I had been pretty turned on when I took those pics so everything was very swollen.

Chills were running through me and butterflies were in my stomach as he continued talking dirty to me…..I was incredibly turned on, more so than I had been ever in my entire life.

Vic continued on complimenting me and talking dirty.

“Lauren, I can see that your lips and labia are puffy and swollen in this pic, you were really turned on and needed a man bad!” he whispered.

I shuddered. I loved the way he was talking to me. I loved being objectified by him. Listening to all the things he wanted to do to my body. I really had to masturbate soon or I was going to explode.

He said he wanted to show me his cock, he wanted to shoot his load while I watched. I told him I wouldn’t cam myself, no guts yet, but I could watch him.

Remember, it was my first time seeing him. I didn’t know anything about him and yet he’d already seen me naked…..wow….I was very turned on. Did I mention that yet?

The window popped up on the screen for his cam. A man in his early sixties came into focus. He was bald on top. What hair he did have was silver. He was smiling and wore glasses. He was also quite heavy and hairy. He had no shirt on or so it appeared. He was actually naked.

“I have such a hardon for you right now girl.” he said “I just have to put this special clamp I use at the base so I don’t lose it.” “That happens at my age.” He laughed.

Vic rolled his chair back now so I could see his cock. Oh my God. It was big, really big, long and thick with a beautiful head. I’d seen a lot of big cocks in porn recently, but not that thick. Something like that would take work to get into me. I’m not built for that.

He held it at the base and smiled asking me what I thought. I had almost orgasmed when I saw it and told him so. Vic was not attractive by any means, it was all primal lust deep within me, I can’t explain. I don’t know any other way to describe it.

His cock was shiny with some kind of oil as he began to stroke it for me, closing his eyes and appearing to concentrate.

I was mesmerized watching, knowing he was doing it for me and that when he came it would be for me. I wished I was there, touching it, stroking it. I imagined I was there, naked in front of him, positioning myself over top of it, the big head touching my lips, entering slowly, stretching me. My breasts in his face, him biting my  nipples.

That was it. I took my clothes off, watching as I did, not wanting to miss anything. He just continued stroking, eyes closed, smiling, breathing heavy.

My body was on fire as I sat back down. I was soaking wet. That’s the only way I can describe it.

Something took me over, lust I guess, it was controlling me now and I didn’t care. I had no inhibitions for the first time in my life I think.

“Vic” I whispered into the mic. “I’m going to cum with you!”

“I’m turning my cam on”

He opened his eyes as he stroked that big cock. Watching, smiling. I turned the cam on and lay back in my chair, naked, for him to see.

He stroked his cock as he spoke.

“Lauren, you’re beautiful.” “Play with your nipples for me!” he said smiling.

I did as he asked. I pulled them and twisted them. I could feel my juices running under my ass on the leather chair. my breath was coming in gasps as was his by this time.

I cradled my breasts, my nipples resting on my left arm and tingling as I moved it back and forth over them as I began to rub my clit with my right hand.

His strokes were faster and harder now as he gasped watching me on the screen. I told him I needed him inside me, stretching me, giving me what I needed.

By now I was really into it, my breasts bouncing, using two fingers in me and my thumb on my clit, getting faster. I had no inhibitions now.

I could see he would cum soon too as he stroked faster, his eyes watching me on the screen.

“Fuck me” I said. “Please fuck me harder Vic, I need you!”

That’s when I came, it was too fast, I couldn’t hold back.. I didn’t want to cum before him but I did, screaming and crying out “I’m cumming for you Vic!”

He stopped and watched, still stroking his cock slowly.

My hips bucked violently as I screamed and came. Juices were squirting out of me in an arc and under the desk onto the carpet, stream after stream as I twitched and bucked again and again. I must have passed out then, everything went foggy and dark for a second there and tears were rolling down my cheeks as I sobbed uncontrollably, confused and not knowing what the hell was going on, my body and womanhood still contracting, slowly subsiding as I caught my breath.

In the meantime Vic had watched it all and was stroking hard and fast when he cried out and threw his head back. His sperm welled up, it didn’t shoot. It was like a volcano. It came out in thick waves of clear at first and then white. Wave after wave spilled out and ran down his cock and hand in big globs as he grunted and thrust his hips again and again, gasping and stroking his big cock. It was the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen. He lay there twitching and breathing heavy, gasping, trying to catch his breath. His cock and hand were covered in his cum. It was really sexy.

“Oh my God Lauren you’re so beautiful!” He said again and again as I lay there naked trying to catch my own breath. We discussed my experienced with the squirting which he had heard of and I didn’t as he cleaned up with a towel. He told me it was perfectly normal for some women to do it. I had no idea. But then I had never been that turned on before. I’ve since researched it and yes, I’m a squirter. I’ve done it since that night.

He told me that was the biggest load he’d shot in years.

“Lauren” He said. “I want to stretch you for real honey.” “I want us to meet.”

We talked for a couple hours after that. I explained my situation and things I’d like to explore. He’s convinced me that having one person I could trust may be the way to go. It would take lots of time and getting to know him before it ever go’s that far though. I know he has a wife and they have been roommates for years basically. No sex.

He said that if I wanted he could even bring a few guys in on some things. Some of the kinkier stuff once I was comfortable. We would all do blood tests and proper screenings though so there would be no need for condoms. He’s got 3 perv buddies he’s done stuff with before in the past. Mostly when they were younger.

“They’d sure be into a sweet piece of cake like you!” He said.

“We are dirty old men!” “We old guys want to do kinky dirty things to women like you Lauren, I won’t lie!”

Time will tell I told him. We’ll see where it all goes. Will it happen? Not likely. I don’t know these other guys or even him. Is it a nice fantasy? Yeah. Four old guys taking turns fucking me and cumming on me in a hotel room does turn me on. I don’t think I would ever go that far though. It’s just a fantasy.

If you have read my stories and enjoyed them and want to support me my paypal address is lonisterling@gmail.com

Thanks for your support.